The decision for me was not to adopt but when to start the process. I have always been drawn to this path and knew I would persue adoption at some point. Timing is everything. The past half year has been a bit of a roller coaster ride so when I first mentioned my adoption plans to my mom she told me I should wait a bit before making any life changing decisions........... so........... I waited two weeks and called to let her know I was going for it. Life is short. There's no time to waste especially when starting a process with so many variables. My mind was made up and I was ready to be a mom. It took a whole two seconds for my mom to dive into the grandma role. She is now anxiously awaiting the moment she can see her grandbaby. I am fortunate that my mom will be traveling with me to Ethiopia. Hurray for grandmas!!!!
As I started to research, I realized there were a lot of decisions to be made; domestic or international adoption? what country? girl or boy? can I handle siblings? what agency will I work with?what age? am I prepared to deal with a child with an illness? I felt overwhelmed and wished I could simply call an agency, tell them I was ready to be a mom and have them make all the decisions. Unfortunately it is not that easy and there is a lot to consider. My decision to adopt from Ethiopia was made from the heart, the head and the wallet. I selected Ethiopia for many reasons including its: rich culture, beautiful people, quick timeline and simply knowing that there is a baby there waiting for me.
Since January I have been working on my paperwork. I finished this part of the process over a week ago and since have entered the next stage...the waiting stage. Gladney warned this would be the toughest part and of course I thought it wouldn't be that bad. I'm a busy girl. I have a lot going on. I'll stay occupied. Believe me, this is tough! The not knowing is a challenge. Should I buy a crib? start to rearrange? plan to miss work? what will she look like? how old will she be? Knowing your child is most likely born and is waiting for a mommy makes it difficult to think of much else. I am very ready to proceed to the next stage. Referral, please.
Job's Daughters: JOY UNSPEAKABLE
1 year ago